Put me in nature and I am immediately reflective. Iv’e said it before and I will say it again; There is so much power in feeling insignificant. When you’re surrounded by beauty and understand how effortless it is for nature to just BE what it is. There is no need to force anything, it just IS. I envy nature in this way and am doing all I can to learn how to just BE.

My husband and I travel a lot in the summer. We find ourselves just throwing some things in a bag and rushing off to find a beautiful area in nature for him to photograph and for me to ground and center. He will go off in search of the perfect composition and scene to capture in his camera lens and I will search for the perfect spot to meditate and do a few Yoga Sun Salutations and just reflect on whatever comes up that day.

Recently, I have thought about what other people may be thinking… See, I wasn’t always who I am now. I was involved in all the drama, had no desire to improve my life, and I took NO accountability for the shit I frequently found myself dealing with. I was a master at being a victim of life’s circumstances and found other victims to join me in my frequent social media pity parties. We filled posts with multiple comments surrounding who had the more shitty life and helped each other find the perfect spots to place blame, taking special care to not ever insinuate that we personally had to look in the mirror because it just might be OURSELVES that needed to change. With ONE perfectly worded venting post I could accumulate over 30 comments and suck others into my misery. (Misery does love company after all!)

Then 2015 hit and I found myself existing instead of living. I had tried to change those around me to no avail and finally decided to look at myself. Fast forward 5 years and I now have 3 going on 4 certifications to instruct Mindfulness Meditation and Mindfulness Stress Reduction, I am a certified Law of Attraction Life Coach, I’m in the process of getting a Yoga Teacher Certificate for 3 types of Yoga along with an Ayurvedic Specialist Certification, and am constantly improving on ways to help others by helping myself. I have plans in place to use my qualifications to assist people privately by offering a buffet of Metaphysical and Holistic services in order to guide others to their best life. (Or at least one they feel they are participating in and not just a supporting character in)

So why after all that work I have done would I even think about thinking about what others think about?? Why would I care? Why would others thoughts affect me at all? Well, because I am human after all and I know how humans think. I know it is hard to have known a person at their worst and believe they have really changed. I know that it is pretty easy to sit back and judge another when they are doing well and assume they are faking it. I also have been THIS person and can tell you the things that would have popped into my head or flown out of my mouth. (1) “If her Law of Attraction certification was real and worked, why isn’t she rich?” Reply: I could give a fuck about material stuff and money! ALL my bills are paid every month which I didn’t ever think I was capable of AND my manifestations surround happiness in my relationships and life in general. We don’t all just think about money all the time. Some of us don’t think about it at all! (2) “She is just trying to copy what ______________ is doing because she was with them for so long.” Reply: Not even close! I have respect for anyone who helped me on my journey but if that way still resonated with my soul and felt morally ok, I wouldn’t even be writing this blog. I began on this path MONTHS before I joined that “studio” and SO MUCH of the work I have done on myself was solo. I have no desire to be in a studio and our styles are polar opposite from each other.

These are just a couple of things I have picked up on, heard 2nd hand, or dreamed up in my head! My point is that too often we don’t know the struggles a person went through in order to get where they are. We don’t know who they were, what they did to change, how they overcame their flaws, or if they are still healing. As healers somebody made up the rule that we had better not have any past mistakes, we better be perfectly healed from any past trauma, we better not let anything get to us, and we better be able to provide instant results. THIS DESCRIBES NO LEGIT HEALER, GUIDE, OR INSTRUCTOR!! If you have a person in your life that is judging healers and helpers on this made up set of rules, you better check what that persons intentions are and if they themselves aren’t projecting their own inadequate feelings onto others.

As I sat on this rock that day I was proud of where I came from and how much I have worked on myself to improve my life. I am grateful to be so secure with myself to be a total transparent open book about my past and what I did to change my circumstances. I was thankful that I am living proof that the tools I use work and happy I am in a position to pass those tools along to others. COVID19 put a lot of plans I had on hold but also opened the door to new trainings and certifications for me to earn to help others.

I look forward to this next phase in my life and love that I am able to help others on my terms, in my way, and in my time. So even tho there may be others saying or thinking things about me or my services, those thoughts don’t take up space in my head and drag me down. They help guide me into an inner dialog where I build myself up and cheer myself on. THIS my friends is proof that what I do works because this could have easily been a blog on how to get even with haters. Instead my focus is how much a person can change when they are willing to look at themselves and be brave enough to find fault and then fix themselves.