In 2020 my theme was RELEASE. In 2021 I will embrace TRUST.

I have never liked the idea of resolutions. My experience has been people make all these promises to themselves, go balls to the wall at the beginning of the year, loose steam mid February, and they are all but forgotten by the end of March. They leave people feeling like failures, because they are usually some huge change that they haven’t even taken baby steps to prepare for. Setting myself up to disappoint myself never really appealed to me.

So instead, I choose a New Year Theme Word. A word I can incorporate into my daily life, my goals, my accomplishments, and my personal growth. A guide word of sorts. Last year my word was RELEASE. I had A LOT to let go of that was holding me back from what I envisioned 2020 to be. Especially the last month of 2019. I had stepped away from an inauthentic, spiritually draining situation, in a position I felt obligated to be in due to a friendship that turned out to be quite the opposite. See, friends support each other in their paths regardless of what they are. Friendship is personal, not business and that wasn’t the case in this circumstance. Many revelations had transpired as I moved through December 2019 and RELEASE was important in 2020. Releasing the negativity I was receiving from that situation, releasing limiting beliefs from my previous marriage, releasing the idea of control, releasing hurt, releasing false beliefs that I had unresolved issues from my past, releasing there was a “right” way to be in my field of interest, releasing the need to please others at the cost of being my authentic self, and quite frankly releasing any fucks I gave about anyones opinion about me besides my new husband who loves me for me!

Enter 2020… The beginning was full of work on all the above, exactly how I intended it to be. I stepped into my power, released doubts, and introduced my authentic self on my newly created social media page Mystikal Rootz. I dealt with drama as the bigger person, releasing my need to always fight back. I did my thing with no apologies for speaking my truth, releasing the need to fit in. I laid down baggage left and right, bouncing WAY away from relationships that kept me “broken”, so others felt whole or like they were needed. That released the vicim role I always had placed myself in. I did this all while giving advice on my platforms, and making it clear I was growing WITH people and I am no expert.

Mid March, things shifted BIG TIME as we entered full on pandemic mode. It was then that I released control because let’s be honest, this shift of the world caused by a virus has been an in your face lesson that we truly have none! (If ya haven’t learned that lesson, catch the hell up!) I released perfection when I fucked up the schedule of 4 zoom classes with 4 kids. I released the need to always be the calm in our family when our 1st grader said “Mom, I think you need to breathe” after I had missed a google meet with my own school staff, & freaked out a bit. I released the idea that I could be ALL THE THINGS when my husband said “Let me help, I can do things too”. I released the need to be attached to technology as my husband & I spent the summer camping in the middle of nowhere enjoying social distancing. I released things I never planned to release. I feel I picked the perfect 2020 word for one reason and it became important for a whole other. See, that’s something you won’t get from resolutions to join a gym…not that you have many options for that anymore anyway.

That brings us to now, entering 2021. My new theme word for this year is TRUST.

Such a simple word right? See, it is the simplest of things that can hold the deepest meanings and also cause the most difficulties. Especially in a world where we are still shifting into a new way of life and will keep shifting for the next few years. The word TRUST feels like it should be woven into just about everything & it is something I have struggled with in the past, which is why it is the perfect guiding word. A word I can grow from, become softer in, relax with, open up to, and surrender walls with. I will learn to trust the process of what unfolds in front of me. I will learn to trust myself as I navigate more options for Mystikal Rootz. I will trust my husband when he says he trusts my gifts. I will trust my friends and family to help, and ask when I need it. I will trust that there is a bigger picture for all of the world and look forward to amazing fresh starts. I will trust that my trust won’t be broken in others. I will trust my husband to lead our family knowing I am his equal. I will trust that my dreams will take shape at the exact right time. I will trust our kids will be ok, even if we are not with them. I will trust that the world will wake the hell up and see that we are all in this odd time together, and the way through is to trust each other!

Now I know what my reasons are NOW for choosing this word, but what will 2021 show me? If it follows 2020, I will be back here in one year writing about how I had NO IDEA how choosing the word TRUST was going to be a game changer for the year. Actually, I am pretty much counting on it! If I have learned anything in the past year and my 40’s in general, it’s that the Universe is famous for plot twists and I always learn amazing lessons through them. So… I TRUST 2021 will keep me on the path I am evolving on, and I look forward to every moment of it. I trust the process of life and trust the Universe to always have my back. I trust that in the most precious way, I will help others in their paths and create hope and sparkle in a world that needs it so badly. But most importantly, I finally trust myself.

What is your 2021 theme word?