Visions of what your life will be are constantly changing. Give yourself permission to change with them.

Think back to your childhood idea of what you wanted to be when you grew up. A Fireman, a Police Officer, a Lawyer, a Teacher are all classic childhood dreams. Maybe you wanted to follow in the footsteps of your parents or carry on a family trade or business. I personally wanted to be an Astronaut! That lasted until 5th grade when my older half brother came to visit & killed that dream by saying you had to be PERFECT in Math. I HATED Math more than I loved the stars so I dumped that dream & went for what I thought was easy… I wanted to be a Housewife & Mom just like my mommy! I then set out to make that dream my reality and got my wish. I quickly realized I chose a VERY hard dream & immediately saw how I undervalued my mom as a person and woman.

For 10 years I stayed with that dream until my heart ached for something outside of the household and family. I had been volunteering at my sons school since he started there and in 4th grade had the Principal again begging me to take a test & let the District pay me. (I would need to take a Math test, old fears crept in) I finally caved and with both my mom & the Principal cheering me on I took the dreaded test & became a Classified Substitute and a year later I was hired on full time at my sons school. The call was made to me while I sit in my moms Hospice room. The Principal asked me to put the phone on speaker because she had news that my mom would want to hear also. (I thought it had to do with my son) It was then that she welcomed me to the school family as a full time employee & my mom jumped out of bed and danced with her IV pole in pure delight! This same school family supported me the 1st year of my employment while I grieved the inability to share my accomplishments with my Hero who had passed just 1 month after that May phone call. I will forever be tied to certain people no matter where life takes me just for the bonds that were formed that 1st year. I was now working in a school when I myself had a hard time making it to class from 9th grade till I dropped out. This was not in my plans…

Fast forward 7 years… I was on my own after leaving my 20 year marriage & was pretty sure I knew what my future was going to entail. I was on a meditative journey, ready to be on retreats to find my true self again, possibly moving to Phoenix & start over with my cousin as support, and just be with myself. THEN my now husband hit on me at our school bus hub and all of that went up in a heart shaped cloud of smoke. We fell in love even tho neither of us wanted to or planned to. In the process I still found myself because he was the supportive partner I always wanted, but never thought was really out there. In the act of releasing what I thought life was going to be and embracing the visions we had for our future, I have become more myself than I ever thought possible. Most importantly, he loves his crazy, no planning, random shit saying, emotional, high vibing, woman and wouldn’t have me any other way. Neither of us planned to fall in love, we actually promised each other we wouldn’t!!

With this new love I have been blessed with 4 bonus kiddos and love being their Unicorn mom. I never imagined being back in a family role after my own son, now 22, was grown but here I am with a 2nd, 3rd, 5th and 9th grader. We have a pretty good family dynamic and work as a team to get through the things a big family like ours faces. The kids go to to Georgia with their mom each summer and we get them from her. I never thought I would ever go east of Nebraska yet now have a favorite beach and island in Florida! We have special spots that are must stops each year that are treasures due to the memories made there. Russell Kansas where the kids loved that there was a town named after my son, their older brother now. Tennessee…Dancing in the rain at the Nashville Symphony courtyard & my son recording it, dancing at the Grand Ole courtyard to a song that made me tear up and think of my mom only to stop at the end and see a crowd had been watching, dancing on the side of the road to what became our wedding song outside Memphis while All our kids sang in the truck. Florida… The every year selfie with the dolphin statue that sits at the welcome center, the gas station we will never stop at again because we were almost car jacked, not knowing we were in the WORST area of Jacksonville, Amelia Island and our beach where baby turtles are nesting and everyone makes you feel like your a local. Southern Energy & Culture… Boiled Peanuts, Civil War cemeteries, old cemeteries in general, silos, old farms and buildings that nature is reclaiming, plantations, spirits, and southern hospitality at its finest. I have LIVED more with this man at my side than I had the previous 40 years combined. I am so glad he ruined my plans and chose me to be by his side. I can’t wait to make and change plans with him for eternity…

During the first 4 years of our relationship I was involved with a local meditation company. I had been the 1st client and the owner and I had become close friends. As time went on, the business grew and as that happened I felt more disconnected to what I thought the vision was at the beginning. Things became more business than personal between us personally & I didn’t feel like I was fitting into this new plan. I stayed longer than I should have out of obligation due to the help I was given while leaving my ex husband. The more inauthentic things felt for me there, the more awakened I became to gifts that had long been stifled. For a year I did my own inner work that was private & profound. It was then that my mom, who visits me in spirit often began whispering and then yelling “Go back to your roots!!” No longer able to ignore my gut or my mom, I excitedly told my friend about the messages from my mom. I explained it was time I spread my wings and started my own path of helping others as she had when I was her 1st client. Unfortunately, the news I gave came at the same time another had also expressed they were moving and would be leaving. This was a hard blow & immediately made into a conspiracy that it in fact, was not. I was questioned about my plans, asked what I would be offering and felt like I was quickly made competition and all friendship had been pushed off a cliff. At the time I only planned on Tarot readings, house blessings, and all the “witchy” stuff I was raised with. I figured I would offer Law of Attraction coaching and possibly help kids with mindfulness as I had wanted to while working with her, but the income group I wanted to target needed more flexibility with prices. She came to my wedding in Dec of 2019 yet I barely remember her being there. Again…I entered another season of change that was not in the plan…

One year later I am the owner and soul keeper of Mystikal Rootz. This year was FULL of unplanned happenings. I got my first Tarot clients on the day I made my FB Page public. I sold amazing 2017 Solar Eclipse Sand Intention Bottles made from sand on the beach in South Carolina that the 2017 Solar Eclipse made its last land fall. (We were there on our first trip to Georgia to get the kids. It was amazing!) I began plans for Law of Attraction talks and workshops and posting positive messages and advice on my page daily. Thats stayed consistent because out of nowhere BAM! COVID19 hits the US and we get shut the hell down! No in person anything, no leaving due to getting sick, uncertainty in our school jobs, virtual schooling 4 kids, stress of not knowing what the future holds, and anything involving me seeing someone for readings, blessing houses, or in person sales came to a screeching halt! Family had to come 1st but I kept my followers full of light with videos, positive memes, and words of advice. This wasn’t the plan for my business, but I continued to go with the flow…

I kept up on my self care, got on my meditation cushion every morning, and did Yoga with my online studio I had joined shortly after meeting Chris. (Yes I had worked at a Meditation/Yoga studio but also had this membership. I work out in the morning at 5 am and leaving my house that early isn’t something I am down with!) This studio had supported my growth in ways that not even I can put into words. Body, Mind, and Soul these strangers who I feel are close friends were & are still my biggest champions. Yoga became pivotal in my mental and physical health years before. It had gotten me off of narcotics for back pain, worked with meditation for depression, & through this online studio and working with the chakra system, I was taking yoga off the mat into daily life. I was releasing limiting beliefs about my abilities as a mom, a wife, and a healer. I was practicing kindness toward myself and others. I had legit become a Yogi. I had kicked around the idea of getting certified as a yoga teacher for a few years. Obviously, online was my only option but I had no idea where to start AND make sure the school was legit. Holy shit, I had actually decided I was going to get a certification to teach Yoga….

Fortunately, I am an online studio member and friend of a world renown Yoga instructor who’s mission is to empower women in any way she can! She has an amazing knack for remembering details about you, creating a family feel among strangers, and hooking you up with other members who have the same interests. Feeling defeated I typed a post and tagged her in it. I quickly got a response from a fellow member and immediately after it was backed by our amazing leader Allie and in moments I had leads to a reputable, affordable online Yoga schools. A week later, thanks to COVID, these studios became even more distance friendly because there were no other options for them. So in the middle of a country wide shut down because of a pandemic, virtual home schooling 4 kids, & managing what I could from home with my school district job, I ENROLLED IN A 200 HR YOGA TEACHER TRAINING!! I was now a student of the Yoga & Ayurveda Center. I gave myself a year to complete it due to life circumstances but ended up becoming certified in December 2020, 8 months after starting. The knowledge of Yoga Philosophy, anatomy, and range of motion I have gained are priceless. I am also studying Ayurveda, Yin Yoga, Chair Yoga, & Restorative Yoga as supplements to my 200 Hr course. Being a Yoga teacher was not something I thought about growing up, in my 20’s or my 30’s but here I am 45 and all certified and shit! Being a Yoga teacher definitely was not part of my plan…

In the process of my training I taught a random sweet lady how to embrace her inner mermaid on a beach in Florida. I had taught kids at school multiple times but helping this woman into poses she had watched me do while my husband took pictures made my heart swell. Letting her know that most of yoga is in your head and has nothing to do with how flexible you are. Asana, or poses, are just the tip of the iceberg. I continued with my own flow as my husband snapped shots. I thought about promises I made to myself over the years of what my life would look like, and how I broke those promises to myself. I didn’t beat myself up because here I was on a beach in fucking Florida with the man of my dreams living a life that I never thought possible! We were getting ready to have amazing camping adventures we prepared for all summer with the kids all the way back across the country to our home in Wyoming. At that moment I was grateful for broken promises…Grateful I had gone with the flow.

Then I thought about things I had said I envisioned for myself when I first decided to start up my own thing and follow my own dreams. Yoga wasn’t in that plan and I had specifically stated I had no desire to teach Yoga when asked if that was my intentions. Yet here I was a few short months from being certified and feeling completely full after helping a stranger do something she never thought she could with her body, by helping her get out of her head. At that moment I released any shitty feelings I had about saying one thing months prior about my vision, and then following where my heart took me. I laid down guilt of promises made only to ensure someone else felt safe. This is my life. At this moment, this is part of my dream. And some dreams just are not part of the plan we have in our heads but when they happen, they are magic. This very day was proof of that, along with so many previous ones I have written about here. I may have gotten my certificate in December but on this August day, I became a Yoga Teacher. Now I feel as if I am part of a bigger plan…

My point here is this, you can plan all day long. Planning is a good thing! It gives you a general idea of what steps you need to take and a direction of where you are going. (Thank my Vigo husband for that mindset he instilled in me!) But here is the kicker…Plans change, people change, life happens, dreams become memories, new opportunities knock, and all the while you must flow with these changes. Hanging on to plans and people that are no longer valid or resonate with you will be an uphill battle that you don’t need to fight. The Universe has your back, it works with what your soul is saying, not your head. Fighting to stick with some plan just because you made the time to plan is not going to benefit you. If I had hung on to the plans I had, I would never be typing this blog. I would never have had the experiences I have had in order to help others. I wouldn’t have grown…

I don’t know what the next adventure or plot twist the Universe has for me will be, but I am sure it will bring more amazing memories, more growth, and be even easier to flow to. If the past has taught me anything, it is that the more we let go, and go with the flow, the quicker the waves take us to our next amazing dream. I am so grateful for all the twists and turns that got me to the place I am in my life which will catapult me to the next one. How good are you at adapting when things don’t go as planned? Can you truly let go and let things play out the way they were designed to? Can you trust the Universe has your back? Can you just go with the flow?