There are many roles in society that use perception in determining if actions are needed or if further steps should be taken. This can be extremely handy in situations where time is valuable or a long drawn out process isn’t the best practice. For instance, a security guard or employee of a store may use their perception of your behavior or movements to determine if you are possibly shoplifting. When pulled over for a traffic infraction, a police officer will use their perception of your mannerisms to determine if you are a threat or if you are impaired. A teacher may watch children come in from recess and use their perception to pick up on any issues that happened on the playground with kids that may follow them into the classroom. A future employer will use perception when looking over a resume and conducting an interview to see if you are a good fit for their company. ALL these roles and many more determine their plan of action based on how they perceive things to be. These perceptions are valuable in most cases and greatly needed in order to keep others safe if circumstances warrant. The problem is, HUMANS are making these judgements through their personal lenses of experience. Even when in a job title that requires being completely impartial, you can’t just remove those lenses. It is part of their human makeup.

As a person who brushes off judgements, because simple psychology tells us they really have nothing to do with you, I struggle with this classy “perception” word. Too often it seems those with power are making judgements that are inaccurate, based on an outside view of a person or situation. This is ok as long as you follow what is perceived with inquiries to learn the full picture. That is where I feel many in powerful positions are slacking. Fast judgment calls made under stressful circumstances are leading to loss of life, loss of freedoms, false accusations, unjust detainments and the list goes on. A persons entire life can be altered by one person in a powerful position perceiving them as one thing, when in fact they are the complete opposite. Depending on a person of powers mental health and past life events, ANY situation can constitute an “emergency”. Rash decisions are made every min by people who are not in the right mindset, are not properly trained, and are not getting support from their leaders. I in no way blame those people. They are doing what they can in order keep their jobs, help others as much as possible, and pray their choices are the right ones. They are not broken, the systems that employ them are. The very systems they work for should be ensuring their workers are mentally and emotionally able to make reliable and accurate decisions and not triggered by an event they are in charge of handling. This is not being done.

2020 began a big shift in the human experience. For years some of us had been talking about the incoming shift, although I know I personally never expected the degree of how fast our existence would change. The virus we have all been avoiding is just a small part of the shift and not even the main focus of the changes to come. The systems that have managed and ruled us that were put in place forever ago, no longer work. Big government, legal systems, law enforcement, and many others are under attack because people are waking up, seeing the cracks, and unwilling to just do what they are told to do when it doesn’t resonate with them. When laws we are told to follow go against a personal moral or value we hold dear, we are speaking up. It is happening globally and although it can be scary at times now, I feel this is the beginning of the complete breakdown of those broken systems. Whats going to take their place? I have no clue to be honest but astrologically speaking, we are in for many more big changes and shake ups. It has begun in law enforcement, continues into the courts system, and many falsehoods are being revealed in government entities. All systems where perceptions made by humans with trauma, are in charge of judging the general public, are no longer being tolerated by those who are AWAKE. (Not “woke” and don’t get me started on how annoying that word is to me)

I have had three huge “Awakenings” as they are called. Most people who aim to help others have. They will also tell you, it’s not a wonderful time. Real talk, they kinda suck in the moment. Awakenings are meant to shake you to the core. They are huge revelations you have about yourself, your existence, and your beliefs. They make you question your logical thinking up to that point and investigate the Shadow Side of your being. We all have the opportunities for these awakenings, but most see the huge problem at hand and only work to solve that. They don’t do the hard, tearing yourself open to investigate work that causes actual change within ourselves. Hence, they miss the chance to evolve through it, and a different form of that initial problem will surface again in the future. Awakenings are hard AF & if your told they are anything but, you’re being lied to!

A common theme I have noticed personally each time is JUDGEMENT. My 1st huge awakening brought forward the judgement I had felt from my ex in our 20 year marriage. My words, actions, and entire being had to be a certain way. I then became very judgmental of others who didn’t fit into that mold and discovered my jealousy for those who were allowed to be authentic. This was no longer acceptable to me and I left to live my most authentic existence for the 1st time in my adult life. My 2nd awakening came when I decided to leave a partnership with a person who had supported me through the separation from my 20 yr marriage. I struggled leaving a friendship that had been helpful and I felt obligated to. The decision to walk away came after I heard words of encouragement towards clients, to be followed with harsh judgements behind closed doors to others. Her words were judgements with no compassion and it didn’t match what was being “preached”. I had no choice but to leave what did not align with my morals. I could no longer be part of something that felt more hurtful than helpful.

The awakening I am currently navigating is the hardest and biggest yet in the lesson of judgement. It solidifies how we should NEVER judge a person by perceptions, others peoples words or accounts, or go by anything that doesn’t involve getting full and complete sides of all involved. It has increased my distaste of judgmental thinking patterns and makes me look forward to a new and better way of navigating this human experience. I have looked at myself and how I had continued to judge others under the guise of being helpful. It has opened my eyes to a whole new different type of judgment, that is hidden behind fancy words, that are made to hide that you are in fact being looked at through a human lens of another’s experiences. I am being shown ways that I too have perceived things with others through the lens of my own past trauma. I am being forced to see ugliness in areas where I had been wearing rose colored glasses. I am being shaken to awaken once more and know that so many miracles await on the other side of it because thats the gift of awakenings. My empathy towards others has grown as I experience the lack of empathy from those who are not awake. I am choosing to grow in ways that are so damn uncomfortable, but necessary to move forward and thrive on the other side of this shift in human consciousness.

I will get into the details of this final lesson in future blogs as I have not learned all I am suppose to yet and am still in the trenches of the muddiness. It has been in this navigation that the theme of judgement & perceptions revealed itself in my awakenings. (Control is ALWAYS a part also but I have blogged on that subject). Not having a traditional job during this time of shadow work and breaking open has given me the chance to dive into every nook and cranny, which is why I HAD to write and share my revelations. I have made many observations, taken hard looks at society and myself, explored astrology, reviewed past awakenings, spoke at length with close friends, and drew off of others experiences to come to the conclusions I have outlined here. I have been questioned and second guessed by others in this personal shift I am in, which are also different ways used to judge others in a pretty package. It doesn’t feel good, it has changed my perspective on who truly supports me, and has opened my eyes to a multitude of “common practices” many use that are just downright shitty! Whether your in an official capacity or your a common citizen, if you think you have the right to question someone who is living differently than you or is making choices that you wouldn’t make, you better have lived their exact experience or frankly…Sit down. Your judgmental opinion means nothing and you’re wasting your energy.

To recap, the world has been going through a bunch of big changes. Many are seeing that the people we have let rule our lives are simple humans like us who may be broken themselves. Their traumas, if not healed and constantly worked on, can cloud their perception and cause additional trauma to those they are making decisions about. The systems that rule us are no longer working due to the lack of empathy and clear thinking needed to make accurate perceptions of others. There will continue to be breakdowns from the top of countries all the way down to our personal selves until we have shed all the practices that have no room in the new world that is trying to emerge. The struggles we are coming up against now are opportunities for awakenings into a higher consciousness if we allow them to be. When we do the shadow work on ourselves to see how we have contributed to the old systems, we heal the collective one revelation at a time. Be open and accepting of the lessons, knowing that the heartache they may be causing in this moment is equal to the miracles that wait for you in the future.