How do I sum up one of the most emotionally & mentally challenging, yet biggest year of change and growth of my life? We’re about to see…
Oh 2022, I had no clue the curve balls you would throw and the lessons that would be learned when we began this ride last January. Looking in my journals I am surprised I was able to bring to the earth plane the things I wanted to manifest in the last 12 months. Practical things such as enough money to make rent, being allowed to draw all money out of retirement systems to move, and creating income with Mystikal Rootz and Mystikal Musings all came to be. Just not in ways or under circumstances I expected they would.
Looking back on a year I haven’t shared lots of intimate details about, for negative energy and privacy reasons, I am shell shocked. I think about the blog, a very long blog, documenting trauma that I haven’t published, and don’t know if or when I ever will. The fact that systems and agencies had me full on afraid to write in a journal all my feelings causing me to have a total meltdown. The crushed belief that if you treat others with the utmost kindness and love, they will return that in abundance when the opportunity arises. This isn’t just my story of trauma, which is why I haven’t told it. This past year made me see things that are broken in society, which forced my head out of the clouds so fast that I am just now able to let my mind be free again and feel inspired to inspire others and create with my imagination. From April to August life stopped. So many lessons and realizations were had in that time and looking back, I am proud of how I coped and how long it took to actually break me. The Kristie I was even 3 yrs ago would have been a mess almost immediately. I am proud of my growth through adversity.
Finding the positive…During that traumatic period there were moments of sunshine and blessings of light. We will ALWAYS find a way to make the best out of even the worst situations and this year was no different. When the move to Tennessee was clearly not going to happen, we adjusted. We used that money for a new home on wheels to accommodate the life we decided to move into the future with because the old one was falling away. We took backdoors, loopholes, and creative thinking in order to put things in place to ensure all bases were covered and we had control over outcomes that others tried to snatch from under us. We learned we are a strong ass team and when hit with adversity, we punch back harder and fiercer than expected. We took what could be viewed as an off the hinge idea if you’re not truly in our circle, and decided to jump into semi retired life on the road sooner than later. We actively made decisions to not return to fields or careers that held us back, and instead move forward with our passions while having part time work to keep us afloat.
Leaving Wyoming, FINALLY…moving was NEVER off the table during this year. Not one thing that came into our lives had us reconsidering our desire to leave Wyoming. What others thought was best made no impact. How others felt about us moving didn’t matter. Our plan of action on when we would leave was the only thing out of our hands, until we took that back also. June was the plan and August is when we were able to leave and begin the life we hadn’t expected, but had planned just the same. Leaving my son and friends who had become family was difficult. It was a busy time and I didn’t anticipate some who knew what was happening to expect me to go out of my way to be with them before I left. I thought after a lifetime of knowing some, that I would have more of an outpouring and willingness to come to me to spend time before I left. Taking an entire day to say goodbye would take an entire day away from packing, downsizing, getting the RV prepared, changing addresses, and getting my son set. If those relationships never have a close, then maybe I had a different idea of what those friendships really meant. That is totally OK and something I worked through rather quickly. Looking back, it was hard enough to say good-bye to people who I was able to meet with, so I was spared some tears. I made memories with those who made themselves available and those are what I focus on.
The shifts…There have been so so many. Shifting my husbands kids to their mom, shifting focus for our businesses, shifting moving from one state to another, shifting out of 2 vehicles into one that has the ability to pull our home on wheels. Shifting mindsets, money, bank accounts, addresses, belongings, and ideals. I currently am parked in an RV miles away from civilization trying to make money in a virtual setting with online resources. I have stepped up my game and know my worth. I raised prices, added services, exploring different avenues to make money, and helping people who feel pulled to come my way. My husband drives an hour and a half to make sandwiches at a job he fucking LOVES and feels appreciated at and is allowed to hand out his photography business cards! He has had his first photo shoot and had a wonderful time with a momma and daughter. This is not where I thought we would be last January, but I can’t imagine being anywhere else, with anyone else. HERE is where we were meant to be.
What I learned… 1) I learned I have come a long way with what emotional and mental bullshit I can handle. This is a testament to the healing and growth I write about here in this space. The advice I give works and once again, I am proof of it. (Go read my blog on the importance of Journaling HERE and Meditation HERE ) 2) Nothing and nobody has a permanent place in your life. One conversation can change your entire existence. One lie can destroy trust and loyalty that you may assume can’t be broken. Nothing is what you perceive it to be because your only seeing through YOUR lens. 3) Lessons can be found in the absolute worst of chaos if your mindful enough to begin looking IMMEDIATELY! While looking for the lessons, gratitude must be front and center in all ways possible. These are where your power is in chaos. 4) My husband and I have each others backs in the most amazing way. We shine through what was meant to darken, and support when the intention is to divide. We built so much trust between us that I feel for anyone who tries to knock us down again. 5) Sometimes when you have plans for your future, the Universe pushes you to live those plans sooner than anticipated. We have talked since out first camping trip that when we are retired, when we have enough savings, when we have our businesses planted, when kids were all grown, when when when…We would hit the road and travel while working our passions on the road. TOO MANY “WHENS”!! I feel as if this would have happened regardless of all the “whens” but too many let them get in their way of ever starting. It is a way to hold yourself back from the unknown and the uncertain. WHEN was forced by the Universe and circumstances, and we said
YES”.
Visions for 2023… 1) With all the avenues I am exploring and working on, I full anticipate Mystikal Rootz, Mystikal Musings, and my dōTERRA business ( Click HERE for essential oils ) to generate income to help us financially. (I believe in hubby’s photography also but I can’t manifest for someone else. We can’t manifest things we have no personal control over. How am I a Law of Attraction Coach and never blogged about manifesting!!! Stay tuned I guess for that! Haha) 2) I look forward to being able to take our tent and go explore the South West region and friends in the surrounding area! I envision beautiful pictures, yoga and meditation in the desert filming videos for YouTube, desert tents camping which I have never done, and laughs upon laughs as we rediscover “Chris & Kris”. (It costs a pretty penny to tow a 33 ft travel trailer so the tent is best while we save. Plus, I MISS THE TENT!! Lol) 3) I envision some pop up yoga classes in the small town we are near when the weather gets nicer and even networking with a gal in the next town over because she seems to know a lot of people and we hit it off instantly! I feel I could definitely get some card reading clients with help! 4) Good Health!! Mind, body, and soul I see myself healthy. I am practicing a pause at the end of 2022 and fully digesting this year. Writing this post is a part of that along with scheduling all post for business pages into the 1st week of January so I have more time. 5) Peace and ease… So much was turbulent in 2022. Things that should have been super easy with no conflict came with major chaos. Feelings of negativity and darkness encompassed times that should have been full of laughter and smiles. It was all so extreme and over exaggerated that it felt like a movie. Peace and ease is what 2023 will gift us with, I feel it in my soul!
Looking back while shifting forward… Reflection can be gold to help you move forward with more knowledge. In every shit situation, you’re meant to learn lessons or you will end up in a situation similar, until you learn the lesson you were meant to. (Read about lessons learned in struggles HERE) Interestingly, some situations have multiple lessons and even tho you thought you had learned all you needed to, something happens again and you learn more. For example, I have worked and worked on my healing regarding my ex. Just recently, BAM! I situation hit that brought up something I didn’t even know I was internalizing! So as I look back to shift forward, I am much more guarded against systems, ALL major systems. I will be protecting myself and my investments. I understand that although I live a life that is not conditional on others approval, someones perception of me CAN impact me and sometimes explaining your character is needed. Planning is important, although it goes against everything in my nature. My husband, a Virgo, really shines here and was awesome when planning our move and I hope to help next time. Living RV life takes planning to a different level and I wish I had mastered the skill before now. I am learning now and intend to just get better at this life skill while putting a Sagittarius spin on it! I learned I am a fucking VAULT with money and that will and is really helpful! (NO MORE YOGA PANTS!! Haha). We have traveled the country West to East multiple times so we will take the knowledge of landscapes, interstates, and nice towns to move when we are no longer stationary. I learned that you can create INSANELY supportive communities online and I don’t HAVE to have friends physically present in order to feel close. I find it interesting that it took leaving Casper in order for my business to start paying off. I think that was me holding me back due to being in a town where others remember the ass hole I use to be. I believed they wouldn’t move past that. I am more aware when I am the one stopping myself now.
As you can see, I am taking A LOT away from this calendar year and leaving A LOT behind. I have gratitude already for what is coming and think my 2023 intentions are just a small piece of what is next. Writing this has brought so much more forward which I will journal about and continue the self reflection process. “FORWARD” is my guiding word for the coming year. I will shift FORWARD, grow FORWARD, fail FORWARD, think FORWARD, focus FORWARD, look FORWARD, fall FORWARD, walk FORWARD, run FORWARD, & travel FORWARD. FORWARD is where we are going.
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